Energy

I’m the oldest
But I feel like the youngest
Stressin by myself
I don’t wanna be on the dumb list
I don’t wanna miss a blessing
Trying to take the easier route
Not trying to learn from lessons
Being one of the ones
That’s always resting
I hate sleeping til noon
I cut back on cartoons
My siblings eating from someone else spoon
While I be eating from my hand
In neighborhoods I shouldn’t be in
I pray for a choppa
ain’t ready for lock up
Their energy consumes me
I’m better alone
Don’t blow up my phone
That energy might ruin me
I just wanna live
I’m trying to forgive
But her energy consumes me
We’re two of a kind
I pay attention to signs
There’s energy pursuing me